I've been feeling pretty 'meh' for a bit, wondering about all the what ifs and how so's and maybe's of my favourite couple. I had started to write this one before the forum crashed, but would like to start it again to see where it goes - it won't be a long one. To put it in context, I found how the writers treated JR and Sue Ellen in the final few seasons to be abysmal - they deserved more and in my opinion, things should have gone in a different direction. With better writing, Linda might even have stayed. As much as I love Sue Ellen, and I do, very much, I think everyone knows that, I didn't like how bitter she became in the final seasons. For me, the writers were completely missing a wonderful opportunity, by pairing her up with JR in business, instead of introducing that insipid Cryder woman and ruining their relationship beyond (at that time) repair. I don't expect JR to change, but I think he could have been mean to everyone else in business, but had Sue Ellen as his strongest ally. I will continue to state what Howard Lakin said 'Without Sue Ellen, JR was much less'. So why didn't the writers do anything about that? Writing means imagination, and change, so Pam is in this story at least for part of it. To this day, JR and Sue Ellen remain the strongest couple on the show, however you view them. Linda and Larry assured that, even with Dallas ending, and I am determined to keep these characters alive in people's minds and hearts. Thank you to all my friends who listen to me and answer my queries concerning my beloved couple. This one's for you and is my take on what should have happened, but what didn't..... SPIRAL JR was pleased with himself as he pulled his car into the Southfork driveway that evening. Even though he'd had to spend the better part of the afternoon with Kimberley Cryder, fake sweet talking her into thinking he would marry her and pull her daddy's company back on top, he hadn't enjoyed the experience, counting down the minutes in his head until he could leave, all the time wishing Sue Ellen was there in her place. He wanted to make sure he showered before dinner, washing away any traces of the annoying woman he referred to as a bubblehead, ensuring that Sue Ellen didn't smell any unknown scents on is suit. She had the senses of a cat. He did feel guilty about the experience, and his plot to win WestStar. He knew that this time he had wanted to make a conscious effort to make things work with Sue Ellen. He loved her and desired only her. But the need to regain his power was too strong even surpassing how close he and Sue Ellen had been over the past few months. For weeks, he had managed to string Mrs Cryder along, confident that at any moment, she'd sign over her shares to him and he could forget about her entirely. He was sure Sue Ellen didn't suspect a thing. The family hadn't yet started to gather for pre-dinner drinks so he was relieved he had time to shower. Upon reaching their room, he realised that Sue Ellen hadn't arrived home yet. Quickly disregarding his suit which smelled of Kimberley's cheap perfume, he placed it under some of Sue Ellen's clothes which were already in the hamper. His deceit had left a lump in his throat but he was sure the overall prize would be worth it and that he and Sue Ellen could resume their married life as he wanted. The thought of marrying Kimberley Cryder or having her live at Southfork made his skin crawl. He sighed deeply as the hot water cascaded over him as he showered. Washing away all traces of her, he felt clean again, the evidence of what had taken place that afternoon fading down the drain where it belonged. He was glad to be home. Glad that he had the opportunity to see Sue Ellen and spend time with her and John Ross that evening. They were his family. Changing into a different suit for dinner, he gently slapped some cologne on the sides of his face, checked his appearance and left the room. He couldn't hear the usual hustle and bustle from downstairs in the living room, and knocked on John Ross' bedroom door. He wasn't there. Crossing the room to Christopher's bedroom, he tried there. No answer. He checked his watch. It was only 6:30pm and the family always ate promptly at 7. "Where is everybody?" he said to himself. He descended the Southfork staircase, expecting to find the family in the living room. He felt only slightly more relieved by seeing Bobby standing at the bar. "Pour one for me, Bob!" he announced, walking up behind his younger brother. "Get it yourself JR", Bobby said harshly, not meeting JR's eyes but turning on his heels to walk away. Regardless of any time passing, JR had always remained the big brother and raised his eyebrows in a somewhat patronising glance at his younger brother. "What the hell has bitten you today?" JR said, in mock amusement, walking past Bobby and heading to pour his own drink. Placing ice in his glass, JR's cocked his head only briefly to say, "And where is everybody?" Bobby laughed sarcastically. "Bobby I'm not in the mood for playin' games...it's been a long day..." "Yeah I'm sure it has while you were out of the office for most of it..." "I had business to take care of.." JR said defensively. "I see", Bobby said, taking a sip of his drink. When Bobby didn't speak, JR persisted again, "So where is everybody?" "Well, Pam is in the bath, Momma is lying down and John Ross and Christopher are out at the stables with Clayton". "The stables? It's almost dinner time. Where is Sue Ellen?" "Sue Ellen has left" JR looked at his brother quizzically, then gave a short laugh, turning to fill his drink, "What are you talkin' about Bob?" Bobby couldn't contain his anger any longer and took one long stride towards his brother. "I mean she's left. She's gone." "Gone where?" "She's left Southfork JR. I found her in Thanksgiving Square this afternoon, crying. She saw you in the Fairmont this afternoon with another woman". "She couldn't have", JR said, although Bobby knew by the look on JR's face that he was lying. "Like the last time...?" Bobby said in disgust. "Where is she Bobby?" Bobby took a sip of his drink, stared at JR and said, "I honestly don't know. I drove her back here this afternoon because she was too upset to drive herself, she spoke to John Ross, Momma and Clayton, packed a bag and left". The colour started to fade from JR's face as he sipped his Bourbon. "Her car isn't there..." "It's likely in town. Like I said, I drove her home". JR tried to remain calm while setting his drink on the counter. Taking a step towards Bobby, he said with menace in his voice "Tell me where she is boy". Bobby hadn't been referred to as 'boy' since they were teenagers. He wasn't and never had been afraid of his brother but despised the majority of his behaviour. "Go to hell JR", Bobby spat and turned to walk away. "Where is Sue Ellen? She's my wife Bobby!" "Well maybe not after this afternoon", Bobby said as they squared up to each other. "And there's no use talking your way out of this one", Bobby said. "Sue Ellen told me everything. And Sue Ellen and I have told the family everything and that includes John Ross". "You stay the hell out of my business Bobby!" JR wasn't one to usually lose his temper but he could when he was provoked. "It's everyone's business now JR", Bobby said, slamming his drink on the table and leaving the room.